Stuck midway

Im caught up midway
Which way do i sway
show me the way
so broken i lay

Sing me a song,
Hum all night long
Take me along
To where i belong

A little lost

No, it isnt autumn yet
should quit waiting for the leaves to fall
its the wrong season again
im climbing up the wrong wall

Left home a fortnight ago
half blinded by pain
i followed the directions right
and got stuck at the wrong turn again

Happy rain, soak us again

Thought I’d,
I’d ask for a little more time
But I wonder how long it’d take
To live it all over again..

So I tried,
Tried counting them all up, I did
Counting up all the moments we spent
Getting soaked in the happy rain..

A moment to lie on the grass again
Staring at the sky, soaking up the sun
Not a thought in mind, not a worry in sight
Nothingness at its blissful best..

A moment to laugh together again
Don’t care what for, don’t care why
The roar, the whimper, the giggle and the shriek
all at their harmonious best..

A moment to aimlessly make plans again
And again and then cancel each one of them
And then make them all over again
Planning at its unplanned best..

Don’t you tell me things would be the same
‘Cause I know they won’t
Sure hope we’ll all get back together
And get soaked in the happy rain
All over again..

i appreciate thy sense of humor. i do.

I love the way you pull them strings
love the way u watch me fall
love how i look the other way
when u quietly snatch it all

Love the way u give me hope
love the way i ask for more
and whilst i’m still begging
love it when u slam the door

The story doesnt end, until it ends..my way..

My intuitions were strong..
couldnt’ve been that wrong..
misconceptions came and got all stuck in the way

These things, they come and go
i wish i could just let go
but there’s something in me that still clings on.

Dont know what that’s about
dont care to sort my feelings out
dont even know what im waiting for, this long.

Maybe it feels as though it was a game i lost
waiting for the time when i win the toss
guess the story doesnt end, until it ends..my way..

not as strong as i’d like to be

The raindrops grew louder,
i heard things i hadnt before.
The light crept up closer,
i wasnt so invisible anymore.

The pain struck, the wound hurt
had them covered up for much too long.
So out of luck, as the clot of dirt
smeared eveything i’d brought along.

The closed doors opened up again,
the shut closets lay bare.
All my efforts went down in vain,
hiding things that were never there.

i wish to strike but i dont know how,
i dont seem to feel that strong.
i thought i’d forget it all somehow,
and here i am, writing a song.

pitfall

i want to mourn my loneliness alone
i want to lurk in the shadows
i want to bury myself deep, so deep
i’d never want to come out again
i want to pass by unnoticed
i dont want to hear my own voice
only so, i can no more recognize it
i’d want to go down there
and stay there,until i see the light
the light, it shall be
that spark shall only be the one
that will take me out
and until that, im too willing
to go on sinking.
please dont try to reach me
just let me be,
mourn my loneliness alone
cause im still waiting for that chime
to wake me up.